Wednesday, September 30, 2020

Once More into the breach

 I have fought with depression for many years. Starting in the Fall, I spiral downwards towards the pit. I always go to the doctor and request an anti-depressant.

They are of some help, but most of them have side effects. The question becomes when do the side effects become more difficult to handle than the benefits.

I have a condition called Familia Tremors, which causes my hands to tremble. It is a genetic condition inherited through my dads siide of the family. It interferes with my ability to do fine work. As my current favoriite creativity is woodworking, I have to be careful. Sharp tools and trembling hands do nor go together very well. Almost every thing they have given me tp try makes my tremors worse. 

WWellbutrin worked OK except that I hd big problems with impulse control. I would go off before I even thought about it. So that was a no-go.

Prozac my hands trembles, fluoxetene same,, BuSpar I turned out to be allergic to. Broke out in hives. I hav tries three or four others. None were a good fit.

Right now they are trying Cymbalta, which seems to be working with no bad sided effects.

 The kicker is that it can be hard on your kidneys in some people. I hae stage four kidney disease, brought on by my diabetes and long term pain problems. I used Ibuprofin like it was candy to manage my pain for years. That and my hobby of home brewing along with my djabetes wrecked my kidneys. Being in pain 24/7 is no fun, so they have me on Percocet. J hate it, but it does an efective job of handling the pain. I use as little of it as I can, but with arthritis in my neck, sholders, thumbs, hips and lower back, if I want ti do anything I need to take some. Currently I use about three a day.

So although I seem to have found an antidepressant that works well, It will pprobably be too hard on my kidneys fot long term use.

So around and round and round she goes.